Called by Faith

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  • How do you prepare for the Unimaginable?

    How do you prepare for the Unimaginable?

    Collaborative Summary Report

    1. Purpose and Approach

    Jason’s pursuit was never about winning an argument or seeking validation—it was about finding truth. His methods were rooted in a need to understand, not condemn. Recognizing that he couldn’t fight or overcome what he didn’t understand, he immersed himself in:

    • Astrology – interpreting symbolic influences and archetypes.
    • Psychology – analyzing behavioral patterns and the possibility of personality disorders.
    • Spiritual Warfare – discerning demonic influences, archetypal energies, and destructive patterns.
    • Emotional Patterns – identifying cycles of manipulation, betrayal, and abuse.

    This multidimensional lens allowed him to see beyond surface appearances and into the layered complexity of his lived experience.

    2. Strategic Mental Preparation

    Jason mentally prepared for every conceivable possibility, adopting the mindset of a strategist:

    • Thousand Possible Realities – He envisioned scenarios that were logical, delusional, dangerous, and unlikely.
    • Pattern Recognition – Like solving a puzzle with no box, he assembled scattered pieces into coherent possibilities.
    • Worst-Case Scenario Readiness – By imagining and anticipating extreme outcomes, he buffered himself against denial and false hope.

    This process, while protective, came at a cost: it required him to not only endure actual reality but to bear the emotional weight of every possible tragic outcome that fit the patterns he observed.

    3. Trauma of Imagination vs. Reality

    Jason draws a striking comparison:

    • Soldiers return from war broken because witnessing evil firsthand leaves scars.
    • He, however, endured a unique torment—not only living through evil but also imagining and dissecting every possible version of it.

    This imaginative burden meant experiencing trauma beyond the real—living through a multitude of potential betrayals, losses, and horrors layered over the truth.

    The depth of this mental and emotional labor amounted to a form of psychic warfare, one that inflicted wounds comparable to physical battle trauma.

    4. Dark Triad & Spiritual Archetypes

    To explain the depth of the psychological and spiritual forces at play, Jason invokes two intertwined frameworks:

    Psychological Dark Triad

    • Narcissism – Self-centeredness, lack of empathy.
    • Machiavellianism – Manipulation, deceit, exploitation.
    • Psychopathy – Callousness, thrill-seeking, and disregard for others.

    Spiritual/Demonic Dark Triad

    • Lilith – Symbol of rebellion, vengeance, and destructive independence.
    • Samael – Angel of death and severity, embodying wrath and judgment.
    • Asmodeus – Demon of lust, chaos, and ruin.

    Jason frames his experience as living with someone embodying both: a psychological pathology and spiritual channeling of destructive archetypes, intensified by her astrological makeup (a stubborn, lust-driven Taurus nature).

    This dual framework provided a language to describe what felt inhuman in scope—betrayal and destruction that surpassed ordinary relational dysfunction.

    5. Depth of Imagination as Survival

    Jason’s imagination was not escapism—it was survival.

    • By running through all logical and illogical outcomes, he prepared himself mentally and emotionally.
    • By constructing mental simulations, he was able to align observed evidence with imagined possibilities, confirming patterns others might have dismissed.
    • This hypervigilant awareness, though painful, became the only way to avoid being blindsided by continued betrayal and abuse.

    The toll, however, was immense: he not only endured what happened but also lived and relived what could have happened—an expanded field of suffering.

    6. Conclusion

    This reflection underscores the unique kind of trauma Jason endured:

    • Not merely betrayal or abuse, but compounded suffering—the reality itself plus the imagined weight of every dark possibility that aligned with the patterns.
    • The psychological cost of pattern recognition, of truth-seeking without illusions, was akin to living through a thousand wars at once.
    • His search was driven by integrity: not to condemn his partner, but to understand the forces—psychological, emotional, and spiritual—that shaped her actions and their devastating impact on his life.

    Ultimately, Jason’s journey was an act of bearing witness—to truth, to evil, and to the unseen dimensions of betrayal. It was less about survival of the body and more about survival of the mind, spirit, and soul under extreme conditions.to arrive at truth.

  • The Full Story

    The Unseen War and the Judgment of the Rubble

    There is a silence that comes after a long and brutal war, but it is not peace. It is the hollow echo in a city of ruins. I live in that silence now, trying to rebuild my life brick by painful brick, but I am surrounded by people who only see the rubble and blame me for the devastation. They frown at the dust on my hands and the weariness in my eyes, never knowing I am a survivor of a war they never even saw.

    For years, my life was a psychological labyrinth, meticulously designed to make me question my own sanity. I was in a relationship, but it was not a partnership; it was a slow-motion demolition. Every intuition I had was labeled paranoia. Every question I asked was twisted into an accusation. I was gaslit into believing that the smoke I smelled was just a figment of my imagination, even as the foundations of my life were burning. Her performance of innocence was flawless, bolstered by the reassurances of those who couldn’t see behind the mask, including her own mother and mine. I was told to be patient, to be loving, to be the steady rock, all while she was the earthquake slowly leveling everything I had built.

    The discovery was not a single moment, but a painful, obsessive archaeology of my own ruin. I had to dig through layers of digital lies—hidden contacts, cryptic social media posts, and timelines that were a public journal of my private humiliation. What I found was a betrayal so calculated and profound it was almost unbelievable. It wasn’t just infidelity; it was a strategy. Separations were manufactured to create opportunities. Arguments were provoked to paint me as the unstable one, a monster she could flee from into the arms of others, playing the perfect, wounded victim.

    To make sense of the unimaginable, I had to become a scholar of my own destruction. I devoured information on narcissism, on the dark triad, on covert and “polite” abuse. I saw my reality reflected in the descriptions of reactive abuse—where the victim finally explodes and is then blamed for the entire conflict. I looked to astrology, to spirituality, to the Bible, desperately seeking a framework that could contain the sheer malice of it all. And in every place I looked, the patterns aligned, confirming a truth that was as validating as it was horrifying: this was not a failed relationship; it was a targeted destruction.

    And it worked. I lost my business, a success I had built with my father. I betrayed his trust, not through malice, but through the all-consuming distraction of trying to navigate the fog. My focus was gone, my confidence shattered. I became a ghost in my own life, haunted by a truth I couldn’t prove to a world that only saw the façade. She was mocking me with her success at having ruined me, laughing as I lost everything.

    Now, the war is over, but the judgment has begun. I am trying to stand up, to find my footing again, but I am met with looks of disappointment and scorn. People see the man who failed, the man who couldn’t hold it together. They hear the echoes of the narrative she so carefully crafted: that I was jealous, unstable, the source of the problems. They don’t see the years of psychological torment that brought me to my knees. They don’t appreciate the Herculean effort it takes just to get out of bed and face a world that has already passed judgment.

    To be frowned upon for your scars by those who never saw the battle is a unique and profound cruelty. To be unappreciated in your struggle to rebuild is to be kicked when you are already down. I am not looking for pity. I am looking for something far more fundamental: the acknowledgment of the truth. My clarity came at the cost of everything, and it is a lonely, isolating clarity. I am rebuilding, but I am not just rebuilding a business or a life. I am rebuilding a narrative—my own—in the hopes that one day, someone will see the survivor instead of just the ruins.

  • Empath Beware

    The Full Dark Triad Psychological Disorder

    In a world where unseen battles rage as fiercely as visible ones, understanding the nature of profound darkness is crucial for those walking a path of empathy and spiritual awareness. This article delves into the intricate layers of the Full Dark Triad — narcissism, psychopathy, and Machiavellianism—not merely as psychological constructs, but from a spiritually empathetic lens, revealing their profound impact on empaths and their unsettling connection to ancient spiritual concepts.

    For years, these traits have been studied in psychology, often leaving those who experience their effects feeling isolated and misunderstood. But what if there’s more to these behaviors than meets the eye? What if they echo spiritual forces at play, forces that seek to sow discord and dismantle the light within?

    Understanding the Psychological and Spiritual Facets of the Dark Triad Traits

    The Full Dark Triad is a combination of three distinct, yet often co-occurring, personality traits. While each has its psychological definition, an empathetic and spiritual perspective unveils deeper implications.

    1. Narcissism: The Echo of Self-Worship

    • Psychological Facet: Characterized by a grandiose sense of self-importance, a deep need for excessive admiration, troubled relationships, and a lack of empathy for others. Narcissists often believe they are superior and are preoccupied with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, or ideal love.
    • Spiritual Facet: From a spiritual perspective, narcissism can be seen as an echo of ego inflation that borders on self-worship, subtly mirroring the temptation of pride and the elevation of self above divine principles. This self-absorption can create a spiritual void, hindering genuine connection and fostering a detachment from the divine flow of compassion. It aligns with the biblical concept of “pride goes before destruction.”

    2. Psychopathy: The Absence of Conscience

    • Psychological Facet: Marked by a pervasive pattern of disregard for and violation of the rights of others. This includes deceit, impulsivity, irritability, aggression, and a consistent lack of remorse or guilt for their actions. They are often superficially charming but are driven by self-interest without moral constraints.
    • Spiritual Facet: Psychopathy, from a spiritual lens, can represent a profound disconnect from the divine spark of empathy and conscience. This absence of remorse can be viewed as a spiritual hardening, a rejection of the universal laws of compassion and interconnectedness. Some spiritual traditions might link such a complete lack of moral compass to malevolent influences or a soul’s deep-seated spiritual illness, echoing the characteristics of adversarial forces.

    3. Machiavellianism: The Art of Manipulation

    • Psychological Facet: Defined by a cynical worldview, a strategic and manipulative approach to interpersonal relationships, and a willingness to exploit others for personal gain. Machiavellian individuals are often pragmatic, emotionally detached, and skilled at deception, using cunning and deceit to achieve their goals.
    • Spiritual Facet: Spiritually, Machiavellianism embodies the very essence of spiritual deception and manipulation. It reflects a willingness to twist truth and exploit vulnerabilities, akin to ancient spiritual tricksters or the “father of lies.” This trait can be seen as an active participation in spiritual warfare, where the individual uses cunning and false pretenses to control and disempower others, undermining trust and divine order.

    How These Energies Influence Empathic Individuals and Their Emotional Well-Being

    Empaths, by their very nature, are highly sensitive to the emotions and energies of others. This profound sensitivity, while a gift, can make them particularly vulnerable to the corrosive effects of the Dark Triad.

    • Absorption of Negativity: Empaths tend to absorb the emotional states around them. When exposed to the coldness of psychopathy, the self-centeredness of narcissism, and the manipulative energy of Machiavellianism, empaths can become overwhelmed, leading to emotional exhaustion, anxiety, and deep confusion.
    • Gaslighting and Delusional Labeling: Individuals with Dark Triad traits often employ gaslighting tactics, making the empath question their own reality and sanity. When denied, deflected, and even made out to be delusional, empaths struggle to find answers, leading to profound self-doubt and isolation. This is common in almost all covert and passive-aggressive behaviors, yet the Dark Triad takes it to an extreme, making the empath believe they are the problem.
    • Spiritual Attack: For the spiritually awakened empath, the impact goes beyond psychological distress. They often perceive these interactions as direct spiritual attacks, feeling a draining of their light, an unsettling of their spirit, and a challenge to their core beliefs in goodness and truth. The empath’s compassion is weaponized against them, creating a tragic bind.

    Astrological Insights That Illuminate the Patterns Behind These Complex Personalities

    Astrology, when viewed through a spiritual lens, can offer additional insights into the energetic predispositions that might manifest in such challenging personalities. While a birth chart is complex, certain placements can highlight tendencies towards control, stubbornness, or a rigid worldview.

    For example, strong, challenging aspects involving planets like Pluto (power, transformation, obsession), Mars (aggression, drive), or Saturn (control, rigidity) can, in certain configurations, contribute to intense and unyielding personalities. A strong Taurus influence, for instance, while typically associated with stability and loyalty, can, in its shadow aspects, manifest as extreme stubbornness, possessiveness, vengefulness, and an unyielding attachment to material or egoic desires, especially when combined with other challenging placements or negative spiritual influences.

    These astrological patterns don’t determine fate but rather illuminate energetic blueprints that, when unaddressed or negatively influenced, can contribute to the manifestation of Dark Triad traits and their impact on others.

    The Demonic Triad: Lilith, Samael, and Asmodeus – Unveiling Deeper Influences

    But it didn’t stop there. As time passed, the true magnitude of what I was facing became clearer. This psychological profile was often shadowed by what I experienced as a demonic triad—a potent combination of spiritual entities influencing behavior and thought. These were not metaphors or symbolic representations; they were energetic presences I felt and saw reflected in real-world actions. I battled them daily—spiritually, emotionally, and energetically.

    This triad, as observed through intense personal encounter and discernment, often presented as:

    • Lilith: More than just a mythological figure, Lilith, in this context, manifested as a powerful, rebellious feminine energy deeply tied to seduction, manipulation, and a profound defiance of divine order. Her influence would often sow discord through allure and distorted truths, aiming to undermine integrity and connection.
    • Samael: As the adversary, Samael embodied the spirit of accusation, corruption, and spiritual opposition. His presence could be felt in patterns of relentless criticism, instigation, and a calculated effort to lead individuals astray from their higher path.
    • Asmodeus: This entity manifested as a demon of intense lust, consuming wrath, relentless vengeance, and pervasive spiritual destruction. Its influence often fueled destructive desires and an insatiable need for control, leaving emotional and spiritual devastation in its wake.

    The alignment of these energetic presences with the psychological manifestations of the Dark Triad was uncanny. For instance, the vengefulness and stubbornness I observed, particularly in the context of a Taurus influence, often radiated the darkest aspects of that astrological sign. This astrological alignment further confirmed the spiritual diagnosis, suggesting how pre-existing energetic blueprints can be amplified or twisted under such influences. The combination of psychological pathology and palpable demonic presence underscored a complex, multi-layered reality.

    Finding Hope and Resilience Through Faith

    How do you prepare for the unimaginable? The journey through the depths of the Full Dark Triad can feel like an unending spiritual battle, but it is not without hope. Resilience is not merely a psychological trait; for many, it is a divine gift, forged in the crucible of unwavering faith.

    • Spiritual Grounding: Cultivating a deep connection with the Divine provides an anchor in times of chaos. Prayer, meditation, and spiritual practices strengthen the empath’s energetic boundaries and spiritual discernment.
    • Trusting Inner Knowing: The ability to see and feel what others cannot is a profound gift. Learning to trust your intuition, even when it is denied or invalidated by external forces, is paramount to your well-being.
    • Divine Intervention: Acknowledging that some battles require more than human effort opens the door to divine grace and intervention. Miracles of healing, deliverance, and restoration are possible.
    • Purpose in Pain: What was meant to destroy you can become the foundation of your power. Your experiences, no matter how difficult, can be transformed into a testament of truth and a beacon of hope for others navigating similar darkness.

    This journey is a profound test of faith, revealing that even in the face of the unimaginable, there is divine purpose in your pain, order in your chaos, and redemption beyond your breaking point.

  • Testament of Truth:

    Testament of Truth:

    Unveiling the Shadows

    This blog post serves as an introduction to my full, in-depth testimony. I have meticulously documented a layered reality that goes far beyond emotional instability, exploring the challenges of overcoming psychological disorders, demonic influences, and astrological alignments through faith and resilience.

    I invite you to read my full testimony and witness the divine purpose found in the midst of unimaginable suffering.

    Read the full testimony here