This blog post serves as an introduction to my full, in-depth testimony. I have meticulously documented a layered reality that goes far beyond emotional instability, exploring the challenges of overcoming psychological disorders, demonic influences, and astrological alignments through faith and resilience.
I invite you to read my full testimony and witness the divine purpose found in the midst of unimaginable suffering.
Jason’s pursuit was never about winning an argument or seeking validation—it was about finding truth. His methods were rooted in a need to understand, not condemn. Recognizing that he couldn’t fight or overcome what he didn’t understand, he immersed himself in:
This multidimensional lens allowed him to see beyond surface appearances and into the layered complexity of his lived experience.
Jason mentally prepared for every conceivable possibility, adopting the mindset of a strategist:
This process, while protective, came at a cost: it required him to not only endure actual reality but to bear the emotional weight of every possible tragic outcome that fit the patterns he observed.
Jason draws a striking comparison:
This imaginative burden meant experiencing trauma beyond the real—living through a multitude of potential betrayals, losses, and horrors layered over the truth.
The depth of this mental and emotional labor amounted to a form of psychic warfare, one that inflicted wounds comparable to physical battle trauma.
To explain the depth of the psychological and spiritual forces at play, Jason invokes two intertwined frameworks:
Jason frames his experience as living with someone embodying both: a psychological pathology and spiritual channeling of destructive archetypes, intensified by her astrological makeup (a stubborn, lust-driven Taurus nature).
This dual framework provided a language to describe what felt inhuman in scope—betrayal and destruction that surpassed ordinary relational dysfunction.
Jason’s imagination was not escapism—it was survival.
The toll, however, was immense: he not only endured what happened but also lived and relived what could have happened—an expanded field of suffering.
This reflection underscores the unique kind of trauma Jason endured:
Ultimately, Jason’s journey was an act of bearing witness—to truth, to evil, and to the unseen dimensions of betrayal. It was less about survival of the body and more about survival of the mind, spirit, and soul under extreme conditions.to arrive at truth.
There is a silence that comes after a long and brutal war, but it is not peace. It is the hollow echo in a city of ruins. I live in that silence now, trying to rebuild my life brick by painful brick, but I am surrounded by people who only see the rubble and blame me for the devastation. They frown at the dust on my hands and the weariness in my eyes, never knowing I am a survivor of a war they never even saw.
For years, my life was a psychological labyrinth, meticulously designed to make me question my own sanity. I was in a relationship, but it was not a partnership; it was a slow-motion demolition. Every intuition I had was labeled paranoia. Every question I asked was twisted into an accusation. I was gaslit into believing that the smoke I smelled was just a figment of my imagination, even as the foundations of my life were burning. Her performance of innocence was flawless, bolstered by the reassurances of those who couldn’t see behind the mask, including her own mother and mine. I was told to be patient, to be loving, to be the steady rock, all while she was the earthquake slowly leveling everything I had built.
The discovery was not a single moment, but a painful, obsessive archaeology of my own ruin. I had to dig through layers of digital lies—hidden contacts, cryptic social media posts, and timelines that were a public journal of my private humiliation. What I found was a betrayal so calculated and profound it was almost unbelievable. It wasn’t just infidelity; it was a strategy. Separations were manufactured to create opportunities. Arguments were provoked to paint me as the unstable one, a monster she could flee from into the arms of others, playing the perfect, wounded victim.
To make sense of the unimaginable, I had to become a scholar of my own destruction. I devoured information on narcissism, on the dark triad, on covert and “polite” abuse. I saw my reality reflected in the descriptions of reactive abuse—where the victim finally explodes and is then blamed for the entire conflict. I looked to astrology, to spirituality, to the Bible, desperately seeking a framework that could contain the sheer malice of it all. And in every place I looked, the patterns aligned, confirming a truth that was as validating as it was horrifying: this was not a failed relationship; it was a targeted destruction.
And it worked. I lost my business, a success I had built with my father. I betrayed his trust, not through malice, but through the all-consuming distraction of trying to navigate the fog. My focus was gone, my confidence shattered. I became a ghost in my own life, haunted by a truth I couldn’t prove to a world that only saw the façade. She was mocking me with her success at having ruined me, laughing as I lost everything.
Now, the war is over, but the judgment has begun. I am trying to stand up, to find my footing again, but I am met with looks of disappointment and scorn. People see the man who failed, the man who couldn’t hold it together. They hear the echoes of the narrative she so carefully crafted: that I was jealous, unstable, the source of the problems. They don’t see the years of psychological torment that brought me to my knees. They don’t appreciate the Herculean effort it takes just to get out of bed and face a world that has already passed judgment.
To be frowned upon for your scars by those who never saw the battle is a unique and profound cruelty. To be unappreciated in your struggle to rebuild is to be kicked when you are already down. I am not looking for pity. I am looking for something far more fundamental: the acknowledgment of the truth. My clarity came at the cost of everything, and it is a lonely, isolating clarity. I am rebuilding, but I am not just rebuilding a business or a life. I am rebuilding a narrative—my own—in the hopes that one day, someone will see the survivor instead of just the ruins.
In a world where unseen battles rage as fiercely as visible ones, understanding the nature of profound darkness is crucial for those walking a path of empathy and spiritual awareness. This article delves into the intricate layers of the Full Dark Triad — narcissism, psychopathy, and Machiavellianism—not merely as psychological constructs, but from a spiritually empathetic lens, revealing their profound impact on empaths and their unsettling connection to ancient spiritual concepts.
For years, these traits have been studied in psychology, often leaving those who experience their effects feeling isolated and misunderstood. But what if there’s more to these behaviors than meets the eye? What if they echo spiritual forces at play, forces that seek to sow discord and dismantle the light within?
The Full Dark Triad is a combination of three distinct, yet often co-occurring, personality traits. While each has its psychological definition, an empathetic and spiritual perspective unveils deeper implications.
Empaths, by their very nature, are highly sensitive to the emotions and energies of others. This profound sensitivity, while a gift, can make them particularly vulnerable to the corrosive effects of the Dark Triad.
Astrology, when viewed through a spiritual lens, can offer additional insights into the energetic predispositions that might manifest in such challenging personalities. While a birth chart is complex, certain placements can highlight tendencies towards control, stubbornness, or a rigid worldview.
For example, strong, challenging aspects involving planets like Pluto (power, transformation, obsession), Mars (aggression, drive), or Saturn (control, rigidity) can, in certain configurations, contribute to intense and unyielding personalities. A strong Taurus influence, for instance, while typically associated with stability and loyalty, can, in its shadow aspects, manifest as extreme stubbornness, possessiveness, vengefulness, and an unyielding attachment to material or egoic desires, especially when combined with other challenging placements or negative spiritual influences.
These astrological patterns don’t determine fate but rather illuminate energetic blueprints that, when unaddressed or negatively influenced, can contribute to the manifestation of Dark Triad traits and their impact on others.
But it didn’t stop there. As time passed, the true magnitude of what I was facing became clearer. This psychological profile was often shadowed by what I experienced as a demonic triad—a potent combination of spiritual entities influencing behavior and thought. These were not metaphors or symbolic representations; they were energetic presences I felt and saw reflected in real-world actions. I battled them daily—spiritually, emotionally, and energetically.
This triad, as observed through intense personal encounter and discernment, often presented as:
The alignment of these energetic presences with the psychological manifestations of the Dark Triad was uncanny. For instance, the vengefulness and stubbornness I observed, particularly in the context of a Taurus influence, often radiated the darkest aspects of that astrological sign. This astrological alignment further confirmed the spiritual diagnosis, suggesting how pre-existing energetic blueprints can be amplified or twisted under such influences. The combination of psychological pathology and palpable demonic presence underscored a complex, multi-layered reality.
How do you prepare for the unimaginable? The journey through the depths of the Full Dark Triad can feel like an unending spiritual battle, but it is not without hope. Resilience is not merely a psychological trait; for many, it is a divine gift, forged in the crucible of unwavering faith.
This journey is a profound test of faith, revealing that even in the face of the unimaginable, there is divine purpose in your pain, order in your chaos, and redemption beyond your breaking point.